willow

Isso aqui é uma certa carta pra uma pessoa que eu perdi. Essa pessoa falava inglês então eu quero escrever isso na língua dela. Se você quiser ler se vira aí. :roll:

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I've been reading our texts over and over again. I've been through this before... Obviously. I told you all about it. I remember the tone in your words and the way you'd tell me not to worry: You wouldn't ever break my heart, you couldn't imagine yourself doing that.

I'd tell you I knew you were lying, and we'd have a lovely argument about it, but in reality I was smiling to myself. I craved to feel this way again and you brought my corpse back to life, from the way you spoke to me to the way you treated me like I was your princess and your world revolved around me. Because of that, my world started revolving around you, too.

Yet... Our kingdom crumbled to pieces.

It's always funny how I manage to fall for the same cruel joke again and again. How I manage to make the same mistake a million different times and call it destiny. I knew you'd leave. Ever since the first time I felt like I wanted your silly little flirty jokes to have a spark of honesty in them. I knew it was a mistake.

What were the chances of us ever being actually in love either way?

The sea of water that separated us quickly became metaphorical: a sea of dry texts. A sea of loneliness, filled to the brim only with my tears. You didn't care.

I started having arguments with myself inside my head. I wanted to stay, oh, how badly I wanted to keep the privilege of calling myself your girl. It took all the fight I had inside of me to be the only one chasing after you. And when I finally gave up, your response broke my heart even more.

You said you wanted to break up too, and you've been busy with other things on your mind... That's why you barely gave me the time of day for weeks. Were you, really? You thought about it? Yet you didn't, you were gonna leave me to rot? Other things on your mind, such as what? More interesting things? Other girls?

I wanted to ask all of that, I wanted to ask you why'd you lie. Why would you break my heart again? When I told you I couldn't handle it again? But I didn't say anything. I played it cool. You didn't even notice- As much as I started to not know you, I realized you never even knew *me* in the first place. You used to know when something was wrong. Maybe you noticed it, but you didn't care enough to comfort me like you would when we were still in love. That is, if we ever even were. I doubt even the air I breathe after you've been gone.

Because truth is, there's probably never going to be a boy for me in this world such as Joshua. Not a bigger feeling and not a bigger regret. I can't remember a single moment where my heart hasn't hurt after you left. Even though you promised you'd take care of it fondly...

But in the end, this is my mistake to remember. Silly little me believed somebody could ever love me right. Just like everyone else, you couldn't. Nobody can, and that's probably on me too. I was stupid to believe you were worth any of my time. Guess I'm not as Smart as you.

Never will willow by Taylor Swift feel good again.

Cold little gringo... I need to let you go.

From a heart that stopped in time, only for you.

XO, Andromeda

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